Hmmmm...

There is nothing quite like a home cooked Corned Beef Hash. I resurrected the family classic with the aid of Aunty Delia this evening. Full of fat and carbohydrate of course, but ultimately satisfying. You can't be healthy all the time, you'd not have anything to compare it with.

Cosmic Balance

I'm having one of my periods again. A fly in the ointment of life, so to speak.

Last week I was bounding along, happy as Larry (Just who is Larry by the way? And why is he so happy? We the people have a right to know!) and, within 7 days, I manage to get someone to the point where they aren't talking to me at all and my working life takes a dire turn for the worse.

Tomorrow will be a week (not that I'm counting or anything) since I lost my rag and a good friend stop talking to me. I want to patch it all up so badly, and yet if they want their space I can't interfere with that. I got extremely disappointed and angry and I really couldn't tell you everything that I said. I do know that they apologised and, to begin with, I flung that in their face. Not a nice thing to do, and certainly not typical of me. I tried to calm down and apologise, but it was all too late.

I cannot explain just how much that worries me. The relationships I have with other people are the core of my life.

This extra responsibilty at work isn't panning out all that well either. If it wasn't for the fact that I know it would let a lot of good people down, I'd have told them to stick it two days ago. Where the sun doesn't shine and further! The intention was for me to be an overflow for an overworked department. Then one person went on holiday and another fell ill and now I am the overworked department!

Still, for every down, there is an up. For instance it has been hinted that, at some undisclosed date in the future, I might actually start to climb the corporate ladder in a direction I want to go. Possibly. It's a mess of uncertainty, but it's better than working a Reception desk when your 30! We shall see...